I'm looking into it deeper than I need to...or am I?
It’s crazy how in 24-hours, how finding out the truth about someone, can change your whole thought process. My world is upside-down, okay that sounds a tad dramatic, but I have no other way of describing what I feel right now. Just knowing that I’ve grown to love a complete stranger is….insane. The same guy I met 5 years ago, the same guy whom 2 years later I called my boyfriend, the same guy who up until yesterday I’ve called a close friend, is basically non-existent. People lie all the time, but I never thought I’d encounter someone who’d take it to this extreme. Lying about your whole life, stealing money and writing fake checks for 1,000s of dollars, even going as far as to stealing a car from a dealership just to impress someone. It’s bogus. So here I am stuck with tons of unanswered questions, a mind going haywire, and my ex’s boyfriend who is just as lost as I am. I honestly don’t know what’s the purpose in keeping in contact with him for, I mean they’ve only known each other not even a full two months. Two months doesn’t amount to 5 years of being lied to. But anyways, this just adds to the list of all other wacky screwed up situations I find myself in. Is there anyone I can truly trust? Like I’m deadass questioning everyone’s motives that I do associate with now. Being fucked over both by my own sister, and my bestfriend I considered a brother, now this. I just ask God to send at least 1 or 2 genuine people in my life that’ll truly be there for me. Out.